A Letter To The _ _ _ _ Of My Life.
December 27, 2014
Hey you…
I realized today that I’m a lucky girl.
After all of the hurt and disappointment I’m still willing to open my heart, get back out there and find you.
I still want you. I know you are amazing….so that helps.
Nights like tonight when all I want to do is hide under the covers and feel sorry for myself that another relationship has come and gone…what keeps me going is you.
You will see when we meet that all of my hurt has made me the woman I am today. A woman that can stand on her own two feet. Who doesn’t need a man…but who wants one. And you are the type of man who knows how different the two are.
You will see when we meet that all of my disappointment has allowed me to truly appreciate the small things in life. I will never take our love for granted.
When you walk into my home that took me 34 years to buy, you will look around and tell me how beautiful it is. My home will not overwhelm you. My home will not intimidate you. At some point you will notice that the blue jelly beans I keep in my living room for my niece and nephew to snack on, match my accent pillows…on purpose of course…and you will smile. You will smile because you have just realized that you met a woman who is capable of making a beautiful home for you one day.
Once we start dating you will see that I work a lot. There are many nights of working late where I don’t walk in the door until after 10pm. You may miss me some of those nights and wish we could grab dinner instead. But you will remember that my career is important to me. It has brought great friends into my life. It has afforded me the ability to buy my own home, travel the world and be as generous as I can to those I love. You won’t be worried about whether or not I will have the time to build a family because of course I will. We will figure it out…I have faith.
I hope you have the opportunity to meet Molly. She has been a part of my life for the past 12 years. She’s just like me. She needs a little bit of time to get to know someone. You can’t rush her. Forcing her to play scares her. But if you show her that you are sweet and kind and good she will eventually give you her love….which is unconditional. I know you will love her and be patient with her. She’s turning 12 next June…. so hurry.
I recently found out that I snore. Didn’t know that I did. No one ever told me that I had before. I know you won’t mind. I know that you won’t repeatedly wake me to tell me that I’m snoring and then tell me that it doesn’t bother you but then proceed to tell me that if I don’t stop you’re going to sleep on the couch. I’ll wear Breathe Right Strips for you and you will tell me how cute I look.
When I’m sick you will take care of me. When I’m sick you will ask me how I am and what you can do to help me feel better. You won’t ask for a back-rub when I’m lying in bed shivering. You won’t be a taker.
I’m not perfect. You’re not perfect. But together we will be perfect.
I’m not settling. You are worth the wait…. and so am I!
I’m a beautiful, intelligent, independent, fun, kind-hearted woman who has a lot to offer and a lot of love to give.
Maybe I’ll find you….or maybe you’ll find me.
But don’t worry babe…..it will happen.
I Went Out On A Date With A _ _ _ _!
June 17, 2014
A year ago, my psychic told me that the man I would spend my life would be the type of guy who my family and friends would judge and it would be my job to show them all why he is the love of my life.
So when I received an email on Match from an overweight Harley riding tattooed fisherman from Suffolk, I replied, considering that the people in my life would surely judge this guy!
My psychic also pulled a tarot card during my reading that had two wings on it and he interpreted the card to mean that together we would be two wings and together we would fly.
So when Justin told me that he flew planes I started browsing wedding magazines and picking out baby names.
We were definitely different….that was for sure! But through his emails and then texts, I really started to like him. He was an absolute sweetheart.
After a 2.5 hour phone conversation we decided to meet for coffee. I prayed I would be attracted to him….
Justin was big. Justin was a very big boy. He was 6’0 tall and probably weighed close to 300lbs.
I’ve never dated a guy with a few extra pounds on him and Justin had a bit more than a few extra pounds but he really was such a sweet guy…..
Assuming he would be able to fuck me I figured I’d be able to get over the weight issue.
Plus, as we headed into Dunkin Donuts I felt like a size 2!
I loved talking to Justin for those 2 hours. He was so cute and interesting. He thought I was a hoot and told me that I was even more beautiful in person. We talked about riding his Harley together and told me where I could buy riding boots. He offered to take me out on his friends boat so that we could go fishing. I told him that I’d never been out to wine country and he told me that there is no better way to experience wine country than on a bike in the summer and that he’d love to take me out there.
Before leaving Dunkin, Justin asked me what my plans were for the coming weekend. He asked to take me to an early dinner Sunday night and I told him that I’d love to.
It doesn’t happen often that I’m asked out on a 2nd date before the 1st date ends so I was beaming from ear to ear as we headed out.
He walked me to my car. We stood in the parking lot for anther few minutes chatting. I was patiently waiting for a goodnight kiss, which never came, instead we hugged.
We would kiss…when the time was right.
Thursday
Justin: Heyyyy I had a great time tonight. I just got home.
WinterInNYC: Wow that was fast! I had a great time too – thank you again for the coffee 🙂 I know u sacrificed for me and didn’t get ur Starbucks
Justin: Anytime! I had a great time as well. It’s ok about the Starbucks. I was in good company so I was happy 🙂
WinterInNYC: 🙂
Friday
WinterInNYC: What’s up?
Justin: In bed LOL dog was sick all night and kept me up
WinterInNYC: Ugh
Justin: He’s really not doing well. I’m gunna take him to the vet now. Something is wrong.
WinterInNYC: Poor thing 😦 keep me posted
Justin: Starting to worry me
WinterInNYC: He may just have a bug. See what the vet says. Try not to worry.
WinterInNYC: Everything ok?
Justin: They r doing tests….
WinterInNYC: u ok?
Saturday
WinterInNYC: Justin?
Justin: Hey. Sorry I didn’t get back to u last night. Came home after the vet and passed out. They kept him at the vet for observation.
WinterInNYC: How’s he doing?
Justin: He was really crappy last night when I left him. Gunna head there in a bit.
WinterInNYC: What r ur plans for today?
Sunday
WinterInNYC: I’m so confused
Not hearing back from Justin was so surprising and incredibly unexpected that I started to think that something had happened to him.
I thought his dog died. I thought his father died. I thought his plane crashed. I thought he got into a motorcycle accident and was in the hospital.
There was no way after the date we had, the fact that he asked me out for a 2nd date and called and texted the previous two weeks as often as he did that he was blowing me off.
He was dead. I convinced myself.
But then one quick call to his office Monday morning confirmed that Justin was alive and well.
Nothing had happened to him.
I just went out on a date with a dick.
If you can explain to me what happened, I’ll either blow you, or blow your husband/boyfriend for you so you don’t have to!
I Had A _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ And We Did It Doggie-Style!
March 2, 2014
My sister introduced me to him when I was 24. Although I enjoyed his company and thought he was sweet, at times, he could be super annoying, loud and a bit clingy. But his cute face and loving personality made it easy for me to invite him into my bedroom.
The girl was one of my best friends. For the past 10 years she has been there for me through the good times and bad. Super cute and extremely loving, she knows just what to do to put a smile on my face. We trust each other unconditionally.
The two of them didn’t exactly love each other. Never have. They were fighting over my attention all night.
I didn’t really want to deal with their jealously issues but it was nice to feel wanted.
Throughout the night there was lots of licking, lots of touching and some biting here and there. Just how I like it!
I barely slept with both of them in my bed. When I woke up in the morning I was exhausted.
I had no regrets but I couldn’t wait to change my sheets, take a shower and send the guy packing.
I took a picture in the morning to remember my first threesome…
I really need to get out more!